Thinking out LOUD – Grief

A fortnight ago, I lost my grandad. He was almost 97 years old. It would have been his birthday on Thursday 16th December. Many condolences were received, but some thought it ok for the first thing to be said that he lived to a good age. That may be so but, it doesn’t replace the grief or mean you feel none because he has lived to a ripe old age. You still feel pain that a loved one has gone. This is especially if you spent the day with him before he died, albeit with him being in hospital. He was admitted in the hospital on Sunday and the worst was to be expected: the worst is expected every time someone is admitted to hospital and they are of a certain age. However, I can now say he has lived to a ripe old age, because time has passed; he is soon to be laid to rest.

The last I had seen him was at some point in 2020 or the early part of this year. It was the usual case that I would go with my sister to visit him, but we didn’t do it during the lockdown; or at least, I didn’t. The fact there was a lockdown I didn’t dare go, because I am considered vulnerable, as I have Sickle Cell Disease. I stayed confined to my home, because I was a little hesitant to go there, even when lockdown had lifted. However, I did go with my Mum, at some point towards the end of the year, to do a little cleaning. Never put off to tomorrow what you can do today. I am thankful that I wasn’t ill on the day before he died and was able to go and see him because if I was, I would have been feeling a lot differently right now. He died only a couple of hours after I left. He died minutes after midnight and I left after 21.00hrs; I had been at the hospital for the majority of the day.

Never put off to tomorrow what you can do today.

Thomas Jefferson, 1825

In preparation for his funeral, whilst assisting my Mum with creating the Eulogy, it is then I found out a bit more about the beginning of his life, and character. I even learnt a little more about my Grandmother. She died in 2012. It left me feeling hurt that I hadn’t asked him a bit more about his life. The last in-depth conversation I had with him was in 2019 and I had asked him quite a bit; in fact, I was quite pleased with the conversation, because it had been the first of its kind, where he had opened up to me. My Grandad was a quiet man, but apart from his ill health, there was so much more about him, which I regret not knowing. I would usually ask him about his later life but he wasn’t always very forthcoming. Things he said on the aforementioned visit in 2019, escape me right now, and I hope they return. I don’t know why I can’t remember things when I really want or need to…

This morning, I received a link to an article dating back to 2013, called What Does The Bible Say About The Cremation Of A Dead Body. It was very interesting, as I’ve always thought to myself that I wouldn’t want to be buried and take up space. I would no longer be there. My spirit would have vacated! What captured my attention the most was the importance of making the most of our time alive.

“By the sweat of your face you will eat bread until you return to the ground, for from it you were taken; for you are dust, and to dust you shall return.”

Genesis 3:19 (AMP)

We know not how long our time is on this earth but it should be our goal to touch as many lives as possible. This is the same whether you are a believer in God Most High, His Son Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit, or not. If you do not have a belief, you should be aware that there is a life after death and there is a choice to be made.

We are to make the most of life. Everything we do should be done with purpose. If you are a Christian/Ambassador of Christ you should live with meaning.

Whatever Your Hand Finds to Do

Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with all your might; for there is no activity or planning or knowledge or wisdom in Sheol (the nether world, the place of the dead) where you are going.

Ecclesiastes 9:10 (AMP)

Many think that living a life as a Follower of Christ is boring and that there is no excitement involved. However, there is much joy, excitement and pretty much the same as everyone else but we live a life that is guided, protected and focused on God Most High. We acknowledge the Maker of Heaven and Earth. We know and commune with the One Who threw the stars into space. He knows the beginning from the end and holds our very lives in His hands; whether or not you acknowledge it, doesn’t change a thing. Don’t get me wrong, there are changes to be made BUT you only have to turn yourselves to Him and He will do the rest. You become a new creature.

Therefore if anyone is in Christ [that is, grafted in, joined to Him by faith in Him as Savior], he is a new creature [reborn and renewed by the Holy Spirit]; the old things [the previous moral and spiritual condition] have passed away. Behold, new things have come [because spiritual awakening brings a new life].

2 Corinthians 5:17 (AMP)

When you have turned your life around, have looked towards The Great I Am that I Am, YHWH or Jehovah, you will find there is a great work to do. It’s no longer about you, but it’s all about Him. Don’t get me wrong, we receive the things I mentioned before, and additionally abundance, prosperity, hope, peace, purpose and so much more (which is a bonus). However, there is so much that we have to do, as well as fulfilling our assignment, which I will touch on in another piece. Once our lives have been touched, we need to touch others; and spread the Good News. I’ve done my part, now it’s left to you.

Then He said to His disciples, “The harvest is [indeed] plentiful, but the workers are few.

Matthew 9:37 (AMP)

Repent [change your inner self—your old way of thinking, regret past sins, live your life in a way that proves repentance; seek God’s purpose for your life], for the kingdom of heaven is at hand.”

Matthew 3:2 (AMP)
Prayer of Repentance

Lord Jesus Christ, Yeshua HaMashiach, I believe you are the Son of God Most High, that You died on the cross to rescue me from sin and death and to restore me to the Heavenly Father. I choose now to turn from my sins, my self-centeredness, and every part of my life that does not please You. I choose You. I give myself to You. Amen

If you have said the above from the depths of your heart, buy yourself a Bible and begin to attend a Bible believing Church. If you do not have a Church near you, there are many Church services that you can link to on YouTube or Facebook. It is also possible to access the Bible online via, which is in an excess of 90 translations and a variety of versions. Another one is, which is roughly the same. You can either begin at the start, Book of Genesis, which opens your eyes to the creation of the world OR the Book of John, in the New Testament. The Book of John is approximately halfway into the hardcopy, the fourth book in of the New Testament. The Holy Bible is divided into the Old and New Testament and go hand in hand, telling you about before and after the Lord Jesus Christ (Yeshua HaMashiach). Happy reading!

As I previously said, I’ve done my part and spread the Good News. It’s now left to you.

Published by Unapologetically Marcia


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