With regards to a relationship with God/YHWH, when one repents you make a total 180 degree turn away from sin, wrongdoing and step towards God. It sounds hard but isn’t. We think it’s hard because naturally, as a human being, we may find it hard to accept an apology; depending on what the wrongdoing was and how it impacted us. However, no matter how minor or major our sins are, if we repent, our God Most High will forgive. His Word gives us the picture of our sins being as further from us than the East is from the West. Such love! It is our repentance to Him that really matters. This is not to say that if we do wrong to someone, bringing it to God is all that matters, because we need to think about the harm our non-apology to others affects them. When it comes to a heaven or hell issue, we are to repent to God.
It doesn’t end there. We repent of all in the passed and step out in newness of life. We have been forgiven of the passed but because we are human we will sin again. Therefore, after the initial repentance, and step towards salvation, we deal with sins which occur after that point. This is easier said than done, but do not give up. Let go and let God! Let Him strengthen You, so you will not venture down that road feeling, speaking, acting the way you did previously. Once you have done that you will be able to do a great and mighty work for Him, effectively, because there is much to do; good news to share, souls to reap, but the workers are few. You also need to seek what Your purpose is in this world. It is the way of the world think that if you speak of God that you are a Bible-basher, but that is only one facet of a believer ☺️ We are also a part of making this big-old-world, go round.
YHWH is a mighty God of forgiveness, all we need do is bring it to Him with an earnestness of heart and He will forgive. As He was in the beginning, so He will forever be; He changes not. We give thanks because He is the one true God and there is none like Him.
“They refused to listen and obey, and did not remember Your wondrous acts which You had performed among them; So they stiffened their necks and [in their rebellion] appointed a leader in order to return them to slavery in Egypt. But You are a God of forgiveness, gracious and merciful and compassionate, slow to anger and abounding in lovingkindness; And You did not abandon them.Nehemiah 9:17 (AMP)
Therefore if anyone is in Christ [that is, grafted in, joined to Him by faith in Him as Savior], he is a new creature [reborn and renewed by the Holy Spirit]; the old things [the previous moral and spiritual condition] have passed away. Behold, new things have come [because spiritual awakening brings a new life].2 Corinthians 5:17 (AMP)
Then He said to His disciples, “The harvest is [indeed] plentiful, but the workers are few.Matthew 9:37 (AMP)